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81 - Still on the Basic Plan of Existence

Life as a subscription continues. I’m still on the same basic plan  wake up, work, go home, eat, sleep, and let the cycle renew itself without asking what I want. The same bare‑bones survival package, auto‑renewed, unchangeable, a plan designed for existing, not living. I never opted in to the add‑ons. No “fun times” extension, no “companionship bundle,” not even the trial version of what people call a real life. Just the minimal plan functional enough to keep me here, empty enough to remind me I’m not really part of anything. And yet, even in this stripped‑down existence, I try to help others who are struggling like me  people trapped in their own basic subscriptions, people who wake each morning already bracing for another day they didn’t ask for. So I offer what little I can. A moment of warmth in the morning, a space with no judgement, no expectations, just a brief pause before they step back into the machinery of their own lives. A safe haven, however small, for those who...

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