37 - The Ones Who Watch Life Pass
Every day, I watch people live.
They work hard,
play hard.
They save for holidays,
gather with friends,
celebrate the small joys that stitch a life together.
I watch them from behind the counter.
Not as a participant,
but as a witness.
I wanted to leave this place long ago.
But I wasn’t allowed.
I was made to stay.
Not asked.
Not invited.
Made.
Held in place by invisible hands
circumstance,
duty,
fear.
Not allowed to live fully,
but not permitted to leave either.
Just here.
Just watching.
There’s a cruelty in being kept alive
but not allowed to live.
To be close enough to joy to see it,
but too far to feel it.
To be present,
but not part of it.
We are the ones assigned to the margins.
Not by choice,
but by design.
We are the quiet observers,
the ones who refill cups
while others raise theirs in celebration.
We are not part of the story.
We are the backdrop.
The ones who were told to stay
and watch life pass by
without ever being allowed to step into it
We’re just placed in the audience.
Made to observe.
To watch the play of life
as it passes us by.
Sometimes the backdrop is what makes the show come to life, makes it feel better and more real for those watching the show and not a part of a stage at all. Some people still appreciate the finer and consistent details in amongst their day to day busy. Those invisible hands are not easy to find and gain control of when the dark is so broad, but I know sometime soon, someone will bring a torch to help begin the search.
ReplyDeletePerhaps you’re right. Maybe the backdrop does matter more than I allow myself to believe. But I’ve stood behind the curtain for so long, shining the light on others, never stepping into it myself.
DeleteAnd when you’ve lived in the shadows long enough, even kindness can look like danger. Even a torch can resemble a trap.
So if someone does come with light, I fear I might not recognise it. Might flinch, might turn away, might let it pass me by, as I’ve done so many times before.
Still, thank you for believing that someone might come. That maybe, next time, I’ll be brave enough to look up.